Sad........

big changes in our life is more or less a second chance.but to me, yes it has has changed, but i m still the same.i hardly can describe what have i gone through for the couples day before.had a big fight with my younger brother and he said sarcastics words which i never thought would have came out from him.
i felt devastated and my dreams shattered again.
things that came across my mind is why that i never learn how to limit myself from being so nice and and faithfully hope that the person i love so much would have the same feeling as me!
i blame myself for being so dumb.
i m going kl very soon on the weekend but yet i m figuring out one good reason of not to do so.never want to meet him and see his face anymore.
even i know it s a very very hard task to do.
oh i m feeling so sad.
i hardly can sleep cos my head keep spinning and cracking.
he s an evil...
and i m so sad..
i am his elder sister..gheeeee
sad!!