kindneSS..

we muSt nOt miStake kindneSS for weakneSS.kindneSS isn t weak.kindneSS is a certain type of strength..!

*tetibe

suddeNLy i feLt like sOmebOdy haS sLaPPed me On my face and then ran away.i m feeLing the pain and hurt up tiLL nOw, buT..sTrange that i din bLame him.thank yOu.

waTer aQua LiQuid..air

aS Our inteStineS are sO lOng in Our bOdy, the fOOd we eaT takeS a lOng jOurney tO gO tO the digeStiOn sysTem.thiS prOceSS needS a lOtS of water to fLuSh all the fOOd tOxic OuT frOm the bOdy.imagine a drain in Our hOuse, thaT when we clean it we can T juS take a buckeT of waTer buT we need much Of water tO geT it fLuSh and cLeanSe and fLuSh it again uP tiLL aLL the dirt fade Off.same cOncePt we USe tO cLean uP the inteStineS.sO sTarT frOm nOw On , use much of waTer dependS On hOw heavy yOu weigh.if yOu need tO cOnsume 3 litreS of waTer,timing yOur water by 3 seSSioNs each time.start yOur 1st litre by 8am.quarter of 1 litre must be finish uP by 815am, then anOther quarter by 830am, quarter 845 and by 9 yOu already finiSh uP a bOttLe.isn t that a greaT achivemenT fOr yOu.start up again in the afternOOn using the same methOd.let s say start at 2 o clock.then the finaL one shud be befOre the nite cOmeS.there yOu gO.the only thing yunnO is that yOu get yOurseLf hydrated for the day.aLL the beSh On waTer..key Of the hydraTed suPPle skin and beauty..yOOShh..!

dO yunnO that skiN needs water to stay yOung ..? rejuveNate yOurseLf with water.drink plenty of iT and iT wiLL increaSed yOur metabOLLic rateS and heLpS yOur digeStiOn tO imprOves.it wiLL alSO helps to proceSS yOur calOries intake. water yOu take is accOrdingly tO yOur bOdy weight.every 20 kilos you weigh yOu must drink a litre of water.sO One with 60 kiloS must drink at leaSt 3litres.simple rite.sO get started nOw tO a whOle new jOurney.and yOu LL find this simple tiPs is very heLpful..water liquid aQua..fill it in NOW..!!

tO geT a gOOd skin ..? know whaT yOu eat..!!

yuNNO what the impOrtant thing in a daily diet intake in our fOOdS..? it s the nutritiOn ..! many peOple dunnO that what we eat actuaLLy cOntribute tO whaT our skin complexion texture.tO get a supple and smOOth wOnderS skin One need tO be fOcuS tO WATER..!

hOw dOeS the very baSic need of living such aS water dO wOnderS tO yOur skiN..? hOw much water dOeS one need in a day in Order tO get shining skin..? am abOut tO teLL ya abOut nutritiOn..and water..

my Papa..

i weNt back hOme thiS mOrning, viSited Mama.the sOil haS sinking, and the graveyard waS sO silenT.Mama is dOwn there.and i din spent much time as it s stiLL hurt me of the lOSS and trauma that i m still gOin thru. went back hOme tO Mama s hOuse.silent.i knOw Papa was inside the main bedrOOm naPPing, but i din gO and wake him uP.why..? i m still aSking myself why uP tiLL nOw. lOOked at Mama s stuffS.her pebereT Vantage, her pebereT Corning, her carpeTs.the hOuse was like ransacked by a thieveS.her rOses wilt, her kitchen was in a meSS.i stiLL cud imagine her walking towards me.came out from the kitchen door, wearing batik and tshirt.i miSS her sO much..Ma i miSS yOu. why that Papa muSt got married sO faSt.can t he just spend a lil time mourning..? i hate it each time when i think of it.i know that he needs a companion.but replacing Mama with someone else within 3 months is a lil bit too much.am not hating him, but i dun dare to talk yet to say any words.jus i miSS him too..i miSSS you too Pa.i dun deny that.

keSidang died..

there waS nO mO water on the plant.leaveS started to wit and feLL tO the grOund,the plant started to bend tO the eaSt.Oh... nO mO new shOOtS.. nO mO beautifuL flOwerS.. nO mO whitiSh blOOmerS... left only the sOil..with the dead brancheS. im sad, but i cOuldn t heLp it..juS blame the rain fOr nOt pouring down, blame the wind fOr blOwing tOO hard.err..waS it hard..hihi ;)that keSidang went eaSt..* sigh * nOw that keSidang off the grOund..! i miSS tO see badak..feeLing sO lOnely shOwering in the pond alOne. hOpefuLLy One day badak findS the way hOme.

the sOund of the lizard..

she feLt betrayed, but she juSt wish that he cud tOld her that, but the lizard came nOdding that he dOesn t interested in you anymore ema,
where shud i turn tO nOw
where in bed shud i sLeep nOw,
am scared of the dark but i alwes dun hev any Other chOice tO sleep anywhere else,
where shud thiS heart reLy tO nOw,
nOw she alwes cried in bed when the dark cOmes
she wish that everything was fine, but she cant take it to face the mOnster
it went so painful, and very much of wound at nite..
she forgotten all on a day lite and it heppens again on the dark
lizard, please nod that one day that scary monster will go away
lizard please make a sound of nodding that you used to
i wanna get rid of it

lizard lizard ..where are yOuuuuuu !!!!????!!!!!

pandan, ataw kah kesidang..?

angin lalu membawa bau kesidang, yang kadangkala buat akO rasa keliru..
nyamannya bau kesidang yang berbunga lebat itu, mulus sungguh rupamu..
angin bertiup sepOi membawa bersama kesidang yang berbunga jatuh ke tanah, namun rupamu beradun molek di atas rumput nan hijau itu..
buat akO bertanya lagi kesidang kah, ataw pon pandan..ataw pon hanya rumput yang bertumbuh lalang..?

akO sukakan lalang, namun kesidang berbau pandan itu amat menraik hati, untuk akO kekal terus memandangnya.

wheN she arriveS...

she flew over the mOuntain and thru the lOng hi-way..
with the bulk of magicaL ppOwder back rite On her brOOm ride, she caLLed..sileNt.!
she flew thru the blue sky, the sun shines sO bright, that she feLt awkward tO keep on riding the brOOm, but thiS magic pOwder need tO be delivered as sOOn as pOssible.

i want tO bring gOOd health to the cOmmunity, and i wanted tO give yOu the beSt !!!
i called , again there was...... am cOming dOwn tO yOu tO bring this magic powder..agaiN there waS sileNT !

after a lOng ride on a brOOm she waS exhausted, she finally arrived to the place .she called, and waited and called and waited..what she can t understand why SILENT ?

why muSt silent ?
why muSt silent ?
haS she sounded like a desperadO >??


she waited, and waited ..stiLL was the silent knOcked on the sky..the brOOm she rOde On has brOken..she dOes nOt need any explanatiOn tOO as siLent kill it all.

but, she never take Out the lOrd of the ring off her right fOrth finger tOO..
let the siLent remain fOr the mOment..shhhhh

So Amazing (with lyrics), Luther Vandross

My Baby You-Marc Anthony

i hatE iT when it cOmEs to bEd tImE...

Leona Lewis-I Will Be w/lyrics

i miSS my eldeSt sOn by nOw ~
yeSterdaY he caLLEd mE and tOld me that hiS reputatiON on the mid-year term exam was gOing dOwn belOw.he even gOt B in hiS favOuritE subject mathematics ! tOld him it waS Okay but, he need to put mOre effOrt tO overcOme thiS situatiOn in the futurE.And i m surE he can !!

A mother-eldeSt son relationship can sometimes exact a heavy price.aS fOr me, i nEvEr can stOp thinking abOut my ELdESt.evEn at hOme i havE anOthEr 3 to lOOk after,i stiLL give the very high priOrity to hiS needs.eveN he staYs far awaY frOm hOMe,with the friEndS, i stILL gO n visit him wheneVEr i hEv time, juSt tO makE surE he is in a verY beSt cOnditiOn.

iT haS nurtured naturaLLy in the earLy lifE when he waS bOrn, whEn i tranSfOrmed frOm a wifE tO a mother.sOmetimeS i m feEling likE it s an unfair thing to hiS siblingS.

i havE sO much paSSion in everything he dOne ! i ll be the greateSt suPPOrter, i made friend with aLL Of hiS frenS when he was in primary schOOl,i knOw evry mOther whOm their sOns were at the samE claSS with him, senT him tuitiOn, and back hOme i dOne all the check out on hiS homework mysElF. i waS sO paSSiOnatE !! and aLL my effort paid when he scOreS A s and accepted in as a student in One of the bOarding schOOL.

but yEt when he S gOne for study and nOt fuLLy at hOme anymOre, i never thOt that i wOuld feEling empty.even i hev my anOther 3 to be taken care Of.my passiOn of what i had when i was with IsyraF gOne tOgether with him aS he lEft the hOusE.what kinda fEEling of a mOther I hev nOw, when the clOsest frEn she had left her fOr gOOd.

i miSS ISyraf !! the firSt few monthS i cried a lOt befOre i went tO bed as my mind was aLL ovEr him.eveN my schedulE were sO titE with claSSeS and sending the siblings fOr tuition, guitar claSS, pianO, tenniS, swImmIng and drawing clasSEs..i never fOrget him.

if he never caLL me within 3 dayS , i wiLL started wOndering what haPPen, whether he S dOIn okay nOt and aLL the thingS that matter and related tO him wilL cOme tO my mind.i juS lOve him sO much.
am feEling the ritE thing..??
am I dOing gOOd on my work as a mOther tO aLL my kidS..???
am yet trying to fine tuning mysElf of taking thingS fairly amOng them aLL.
wana be the bESt mOm they ever had as long as i stILL alive and strOng~ yOOOsHHHH !!

fB....withOut~

it S a new day Of anOther chaptEr Of me and family and withOut my fB frEnziE.thiS mOrn , Out Of nOwhere i wOke uP early at 430am and switched On my laPtOP and typed the fB hOmepage so that i could log in, but sadly realised that i ve oredY deactivated it few days agO.

LaSt niTE.
i feLt sO dOwn and saD whenever , huBBY camE bacK and tOLd me abOut hiS fB frEns and the triP they are organising tO a place tOgether.he waS anxious and i was jus cOld.........listEned tO him .dEEp dOwn in my hearT, i neveR have any OPpOrtunity tO teLL him the truth hOw i treasUrE my fB frens tOO, that I dO have the smilES and laughtErs with thEm, i OlsO hev a lOt Of planS with my Own friendS...juS exactly like the way he dOes !i dO hev iT aLL..........:(

yeS, withOut the fB i cOuld be mOre fOcuS on my roUtinE as a mOther and a hOmemaker,
but i m fEElin' lOnely.i m fEELin' like being dumPed in a tOnnes of thrash in a deserTed iSland.my frEns and aLL the laughtEr i ve GOt frOm them wErE gOne, thE Only thingS that stayS are the knOwledgE and educatiOnS i gained within the periOd.thanK yOu tO my fB frEns for rOcking my wOrld ! eveN thO it was juS a whilE.

i StILL remembEr laSt tIME , i thOught i wOulD be thEre tiLL thE End Of my lifE , and they wilL be with mE tHrOugh thE SAD and haPPY timeS ~ but yet am juSt alOne..
i miSS facebOOking !! and the overwhelmed feelin' i vE gOt each time i ve dOne thingS.things which i felT stupid, siLLy Or unimpOrtant, but tO my certain frEns they wiLL stILL respOnd me , with advicE and laughters.

shOuld i juS activatE my facebOOK again...
yeT i m stILL lOOking for an answeR. yOOOShhhh !!!

Sad........

big changes in our life is more or less a second chance.but to me, yes it has has changed, but i m still the same.i hardly can describe what have i gone through for the couples day before.had a big fight with my younger brother and he said sarcastics words which i never thought would have came out from him.
i felt devastated and my dreams shattered again.
things that came across my mind is why that i never learn how to limit myself from being so nice and and faithfully hope that the person i love so much would have the same feeling as me!
i blame myself for being so dumb.
i m going kl very soon on the weekend but yet i m figuring out one good reason of not to do so.never want to meet him and see his face anymore.
even i know it s a very very hard task to do.
oh i m feeling so sad.
i hardly can sleep cos my head keep spinning and cracking.
he s an evil...
and i m so sad..
i am his elder sister..gheeeee
sad!!

hey jus came bck frm phuket...again.

the holiday was ..hmm..ok.loved to c the big waves hit the beach.captured all the momentos but the photo seem not so xciting as it was in real.well ..experience tell all.

here r some pics...kids..n me.and also the signage abt tsunami.makin' me think abt on how the disaster ruin all in here few years ago.now the thais still get going with life.mat salehs are everywhere as well as pak arab.thais sell souvenires and the price r all 100% much mo expensive.the straTegy was jus to let the price quoted.then let us..the tourists bargain.well..i never want to lose..bargain it all til they said im crazy...hahaha...but i admire them.so tricky when it comes to money.

each time the waves hit the beach..

i was jus sitting nearby,looking to the open andaman sea.while my kids enjoying themselves with the water and sand.at times i felt horrified,by imagining on how was the day like when tsunami strikes phuket.the scenario must b same like it was when i was there.jus a wink it came and destroy all.

guess i better not to look back anymo.the waves that keep coming touched my bald feet was like a lil' baby.it was so nice n beautiful.bottom of my heart ..may there will b no tsunami again in phuket.amin

hey tday is so funky sad../
i ve rceived a bad sms.told me to go to hell...sort of.
this is an internal disease among malay ppl.they cant c others happy.cant c the same race going up n advance..all they know is jus to make sure nobody can go more futher.im sick of this all.my heart want to fight back so much..but my head said better not to deal with this stupid ppl.n i guess am not crazy yet.hope that i can forget this all asap.

Hey today is so fun...

i had late class started at 6pm.n i did informed evrybody that i ll b on leave on this 4,5n 6 of june.mean there wil b no class at all.i wil b missing my students...n i knw ,perhaps they will miss me too..hehe

wil b going to phuket on the day.

hope that this time i ll get myself indulge in the hotel i ve booked.i wanna put on my new bikini on n get my skin tan n tanner by the sun.hope this time it wont spoil my hair like it was last time.